Monday, December 18, 2006

Test Post for Profile Picture...!!!

Last time as I was launching a post, without my concern the blogger picked up a picture by itself as my profile picture and displayed thereupon. Therefore, this one is shot after fixing the problem, hoping to see the real me in there.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006


What is happening with me in the recent days, is anyone wondering up here? Its been almost three months since I have posted anything in here. Between then and now, there have been so many things happened. Good and bad alike. Be as it may, since I am an ardent believer of "what do you think, what you are - philosophy" I always wanted to look at the positive side of any outcome.

The following passage I am re-typing in it here from a book written by Swami Satchidananda entitled on The Golden Present. In the hope of, it will help me when I need it wherever and whatever the situation I am in. This reading is for the month of December 12th. Here it goes...


...Don't worry about anything. Worry never brings any benefit to anyone. On the other hand, it spoils even the little that you might do. There is a beautiful saying I read on a daily calendar page many years ago. It said, "sorrow is nothing but what you borrow." Nobody is going to give you that. You go and borrow it. If you don't care to borrow it, there is no sorrow for you. That is all. You are the cause of your worry. Nobody can bring worry to you. If you care, decide not to worry. Remember, worry is not going to bring anything to us. On the other hand, it will sap away even the little energy, the little capacity, that we may have. A worried doctor cannot operate, you all know that. A worried student cannot write an exam. Go with full confidence. Just say, "I am doing all that I can. That is it."

We make things change. Everything takes it own time. We are in a hurry to change things. We want everything instantaneously. Allow nature to have its say. Nature is God. Let our lives be filled with trust in the higher will. Whether it is an individual or an organization or a nation or the whole globe, let it go smoothly in its own time...

Sunday, August 13, 2006

The Movie That Stole My Heart…!

Last night I watched another touchy movie amidst uncontrollable tears streaming down my cheeks. I am not ashamed of confessing the truth. I consider, that is the reward utmost one could pay to a good movie and the director.

The name of the movie was ‘House of D’ written, directed and starred by David Duchovny. The movie was wonderfully woven and filmed in its own rhythm. Beside, David Duchnovny, there are some veteran actors such as Robin Williams, Tea Leoni and Erykah Badu. Those are the people who stole my heart in that movie along with the emerging teenager actor Anton Yelchin.

What had caught my attention in that story plot was this: We as a human being think, raising ourselves happen just like another process however the vegetation will do. Most of us, never ever pay attention to how we grow ourselves into adulthood, consciously. For lots of us, it occurs just naturally, so we think.

Though, in ‘House of D’, it tries to capture the opposite. It captures and portrays through some other people‘s lives as to how conscious effort it is. When the past troubles the present, Tommy (David Duchnovny) tries to rediscover himself in the street of his childhood, by re-tracing his roots and come in contact with his childhood’s friendly adults who shaped his present.

When that reunion happens Tommy himself sheds off of his withheld adolescence to become a complete adult to a family.

Robin Williams comes as Mr. Pappas, needless to say how he himself throws into that character as mentally challenged with his facial expression and expressing the boundless love and wisdom at the end of the movie, when he gets a chance to reunite the then little buddy David Duchnovny now as an adult (Tommy) along with his family.

The movie profoundly reflects another part of American lives, especially, with single mom and her suffering to keep the family on the move only with the mere hope of the future. The way that movie is told, to me is like every frame needs to be pondered over and over, since, that much important is given to every single shot and character there in to say what they have to say, depth!

Tommy disappoints his mom Tea Leoni (Mrs. Warshaw) for the love of Mr. Pappas’ by shouldering a little shoplifting; and that leads to Tommy’s dismissal of college fund, the one most anticipated by his mom, breaks her heart so that night she decides to over doze herself with sleeping pills and falls in coma.

At that juncture, Tommy is left with no option but forced to live with a stranger couple. Since he is still a minor needed to be cared for, eventually that sort of caring leads to put him in military school, so he is told. All in all, Tommy is only 13 years old, now totally uncertain about his future and what he has to do, seeking out a crazy wisdom by four walled Lady Bernadette (Erykah Badu), who claims initially that “she was a genius that is why , she is imprisoned and up here .”

This boy Tommy, most of the time gets advice from her, standing in the street corner and finally when she hears the woes of the boy’s situation, she challenges him to run away.

So the movie goes…

Overall, it is a must see movie…

Friday, August 11, 2006

What We lose in the awake of recent terror?

In recent days we have been exposed to so many strategies, as to how people can come up with killing techniques of its own race. Slowly but meticulously, it is happening at the physical level right in front of us, as we all know. Somewhere in a remote corner of a world a car bomb or human bomb explodes and kills an X number of people; so the news line runs on our bottom of the TV screen, we read it as though it is another piece of news coupled with some Pamela Anderson has decided to remove her breast implant.

Though, what we have failed to realize is that we are deliberately led to lose our innocence of existence by trotting in the path of violence by being immune and numbing to it.

What had prompted me to write this note is that the recent airport alert over here in the US. The recent strategy of terrorizing people’s mind is not happening in the movies or through a novel. It is very real but a failed mission. How I feel about the whole ordeal is like this, more and more we are exposed to the violent part of the human nature. Which in turn sow the seeds of looking and dwelling in the dark chamber of our pessimistic existentiality.

The media is trying to sell whatever it could, by product of that behavior is loss of our innocence by watching the demonstration of how to make a chemical bomb using some chemical components. Why do we need that kind of elaborative demonstration anyway?

It is mind boggling to think and live in this dreadful blood-oil thirsty world. Where are we heading? Can we walk back to where we were, without all these undesired knowledge and wisdom we have been forced to witness?

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

A Washed Ashore Frog and Us…

A couple days before I was in Minnesota, a place is known for its thousands of lakes. I was there basking along a couple of lakes nearby our home. Most favorite of two lakes out of five I have visited were Turtle Neck Lake (TNL) and the Snail Lake (SL). However, the area wise the SL occupied nearly 500 acres while the former was only half of it.

Anyway, I along with my friend-son who is eight years old, who has his own license for fishing, went to the turtle neck lake around 12 in the noon. It was a hot day, the temperature was hovering around 90 degree F, just a perfect day for the outdoor swimming and fishing activity.

Where we picked out a site to sit and fix our fishing rod and the barb was on a dock. My son was hopping a step as he walked on it, since he took of his shoes and started walking bare feet on the Aluminum paved dock was which was literally on a boiling point; so my son told me and jumped off from the dock into the water, asking me to put a towel at the end of the deck where we could sit on and fix the rest.

We initially sitting there dangling our feet into the water and engaging ourselves into a conversation talking about whether fishes would drink water or not and the stuff. As we did that, so many tiny fishes started biting our toes as the dead skins started attracting them to feed on. It was ticklish and thrilling at the same time, we enjoyed them utmost of our heart.

Within like a half hour we have caught three Basses weighing about three to four bound each. One of which, really heavy for my son to reel it off to the shore, was struggling and screaming out of his lungs in excitement, “appa, come on help me it is too heavy for me,” as I was taking a shot. Before, I could go and helped him, it was too late, the fish cut the barb off and writhed away.

Later on as we walked by the beach and looking for shells and the stuff. We found a frog laying on a leaf litter. I was so excited so my son. I asked him, if he wanted to hold and feel it, he said yes without a second thought. As I tried to catch, it hopped a couple times, however, I managed to catch it.

He was holding it gently while rubbing on it snout. Thereupon, we noticed the frog was not doing well by noticing a cut on its left hind limb. Perhaps, it had cut by the one of the motorized boats. Every homes, pretty much owns a boat in that state I believe. I had seen that day itself so many families single and group alike had a fun ride. A symbol of luxury and power the kind of boat they had it seemed. Anyway, I thought there itself, a spoilt people and a country with the surplus of everything to exploit at their will.

That poor frog visibly sick and about to die. That was when, my son asked me what we should do with the frog? Should we take to the doctor? I was standing there, confronting, how to answer to that boy without conflicting his belief of compassion and caring of the fellow living things. I told him, I believe we should leave the frog where we found it. So the nature would take care of it at its best care than what we could do.

Therefore, we left the frog carefully right there where we found it earlier. Before that, with the fish, we came to know really late that we can not take the fishes home, in spite of the license and associated money involved. Since, that particular lake is on the conservation measure of preserving Basses, whoever catching they were requested to release back into the water.

The question is, I do not know how strategically it is going to help them with the caught fish pulled out of the water and handled at times roughly in order to remove the barb out of its mouth, would it make out when it is released back into the water?

What I wish now altogether why they did not tell us at the first place not to fish for gaming.

Here is the question for you guys, What would you do with the sickened frog, when a little boy asked you the same question as my son had asked me?

What would you do with the fish you had caught and knowing that it is not going to make it out when you released it back?

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Indian Bloggers, Its a High Time...

Here is the day, the most expected one from our recent past is with us to face. All along, since the most welcoming blogosphere existence, I was expecting something like this "temporary shut down thingy" would happen. And exactly that has happened in the name of national security. And now what?

Internet revolution, as we all aware of, is taking us into another level of human intelectuality. This tool is, I believe breaking all the barricades and providing a chance to reach out and share the individuals idea, knowledge and wisdom at the snap of a finger around the world.

It can create a huge impact in the pattern of ones belief system. When one individual indepth vision into something is brought out and shared with the fellow readers, he/she ignites the fire onto others too, to think and change their whole dimension of looking at things. Is not it a great boon for our time?

Now what is going on here with blogging, and banning it in our system. I firmly believe there is something is moving with blogging, which could have tremendously attracted the attention of the biggies and now they feel threatned.

If the banning is only temporary, its tolerable, otherwise, it is a high time for Indian bloggers to unite together to fight and revoke the lost right so called the freedom of expression.

Monday, July 10, 2006

Innocence Is a Fountain in Finding Newness…!

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We all get boredom once in a while for no reason. Have you ever searched for the reason which makes you to feel you are bored and restless? Boredom occurs to us when we are least in touch with our creativity. Creativity naturally occurs to the one, who communes with him/herself in a deeper level. If it is so, then what obscures to be with ourselves, so that we can bring forth the creativity to annihilate the boredom?

The obscurity is our own Ego or Self-image, which functions like a barrier which we built for ourselves like a moat in between the caged zoo animal and the fence. The moat in zoo helps animals from escaping, by creating a wider gap or a fearful state to the caged animal.

The same way our own self-image obscures us from being who we are. For instance, We can not make a toddler to get bored as he/she is in vibrant mode to learn and amaze at everything whatever he sees, touches and smell, to simplify it we can say the innocence is intact still. Although, that is not the case with an eight year old kid, there we find boredom and restlessness in them, if so, then what happened in between.

I feel in the latter case, I mean with the eight years old kid, the innocence is being lost, by identifying things by its name, color, the functionality etc., Which means the kid started seeing the same thing with pre-conceived ideals and draw a limitation from going beyond the descriptive nature of whatever is said or invented already. And that is where also come the self-image that I know about it all attitude; another heavy burden to carry it around.

Being innocent is our natural state and unadulterated, as long as we are in communion with our self. We naturally do not draw any limitation on us, we are ever on the expanding mode, in other word, being free of self-image (which is the Knower State = I know everything). Can you be in a jungle and watch a butterfly or bird for hours sitting in one place and observe its activity, without getting boredom?

Probably you can do it, why, there you are just merging yourself with simply being it, by letting your eyes follow the object wherever it goes. But the whole thing come to an abrupt end when you start thinking, oh, that bird’s behavior is this and this is what the bird is going to do the next. And thereupon the growing boredom kicks in and your body gets stiff and you are restless now, because you lost your innocence along with it. The chance of finding a newness is also lost, because of lost innocence. And now you want to find something else to do more exciting.

The same thing happen with gazing of the moon or night sky, the knower look at it thinking he knows what is in there. On the other hand, a poet look at it as a beautiful entity with everlasting newness in it. There, who is really having an unlimited access to ever vibrating life around us?

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Religion and Spirituality Could Ever Go Along...?

I do not know why always I come up with titles which is tricky to draw a distinguishable line between the duality of our existence or a thing. In recent days I have been struggling to find an answer to this question; whether the religion and spirituality are two different things standing at the two extreme polar. Wondering whether it could be merged at the end, beyond the physical differences, where it could walk hand in hand. I believe the chances are very slim.

In my understanding I think religious individuals are more problematic by sticking with whatever stigma he/she has been taught with by clinging onto it really tight. However, there are exceptional cases who walked away from the barricades and seeing the things as such and embracing everyone as one.

Whereas, the spiritualistic individual is going beyond the boundary and learn to look everything as one or the same. It occurs just naturally to them since they embrace the whole existence as singularity of one existence.

I could not comply with so rigid religiosity at whatever the cause. In one side, preaching to be nice fellow with any living thing yet with another side sowing the hatred against, the one who is not following theirs.

Therefore, the very religious rigidity does not let people have the tolerance to one another, if we ended up being so fanatic about it.

For a while now I had been looking for a book, which opened up my eyes really in a greater extend with a small quote, which read like this;

“Where the religion ends, that is the point where the spirituality begins.”

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Does the Soul Has Evolution…?

How, to a rational mind we can prove that there is a thing called soul-evolution? As we all knew and agreed to a common concept that our mind is limitless just like the expanding universe. Our mind can go on expand limitlessly as we get exposed to more newer things, in assimilating it, later on only to come up with new understanding of what we have assimilated, so the expansion goes on exponentially. The simple formula for the inner growth rate is, the more you are exposed to a new dimensionality of others perception the greater the expansion of your self-growth.

In the above passage we have talked about mind and its essential dependency of stimulation from outer source for its expansion or growth. In the same way, every matter or living things has a wear and tear, even an inanimate thing. Therefore, we could say that under the sun everything has a growth and death progressively in a visible realm. The thinking mind of human beings, even for that case, a rational mind of a child could rise the following questions when it gets a chance to look into the amazement of star lit night sky. Usually the questions would be posed like these:

a) Where did the world come from? b) Why did god make the world? c) Where was I before I was born? d) Where do people go when they die? These are questions, we as an evolved species ask at various point of our life term. That shows apparently we do have unlimited possibility to expand our growth by merely asking questions. In other word, we are something beyond our own comprehension yet to be explored.

People in general we all fall in the same category of human beings. We all consider ourselves are the same, have the same fundamental emotional basis to be called as beings. However, where do we differ from one another when a given moment? What makes us to behave or react to a situation the way we react or behave? Is it something to do with our brought up environment later on adding our own self-effort by learning more? Or Have we just come into this world like a blank slate of mind sort? Where is the origin of our first thought and associated reactions? Does a baby think while it is in its womb? If yes, what kind of thinking?

Why children who are coming from the same parents and given environment, do not behave or grow up with same attitude and temperament? What makes them to behave and presume their life differently, in spite, of the same parental guidance and opportunities? Is there something beyond our reach to answer certain questions, which is placed in the fifth dimensional plane, where we can not even bend our mind to take our imagination there?

Until a couple months before I could not able to correlate soul-evolution (reincarnation?) and real known fact of Darwin’s evolutionary theory. Since, I am in a place where there are so many people who love to venture into forbidden field, thereby, they know only to ask questions. I was not buying into the idea of soul-evolution. Then there comes a day I accidentally ran onto a reading material which led me to a whole new world of understanding; at least for now to convince me that, we do all have evolution physiologically, mentally, spiritually and eventually now Ibelieve it should happen in soul-fully too.

If every living or non living thing has a cycle or evolution, why not our soul (or the prana or the rational mind) should not presume such a thing. When, at least, we are all differing in different plane of intellectual, emotional and spiritual plane; which ultimately paves the way to define on which plane we stand and see the world. So, I conclude, the different level of our soul growth must have been too in association with above said factors.

Why some people, in spite of all that provision and proper surrounding to evolve onto the next plane of thinking, still refusing to get out of the pool they stand in? And that makes me to wonder, is it something to do with the lack of soul-growth like any other evolution, an individual human mind also has the evolution and that requires so many birth times to passes from one phase to the other?

Please do not ask me to prove it. The observation that I made, basically a logical one, while I look at closely the existentiality of our human nature at varying level, those questions and inferences have occurred naturally to me

Friday, May 26, 2006

Arundhati Roy and Her India...!

Since I finished reading Arundhati Roy’s booker price winning novel “God of Small Things,” her image as a writer had been stuck in my mind for years now. I have not seen that novel as a traditional novel in the first place, it is more than that. In it, I believe she tried to send so many societal issues, for that, she simply used the characters there on to carry. Anyway, I can not deny that novel had left me with an inspiration up to the point of sharing with so many others.

The then I forgot about her almost for a couple years as to what was going on with her, except the awareness of her being an activist in India. Beside that one more way I used to keep track of her thought arena is by visiting, where she writes mostly about the international politics and the related issues.

The reason today I wanted to write about her in my page was, recently I happened to read her speech in New York on the occasion of one of her book reading functions.

There she went on proclaiming her concern over India like this, “ She said she was confused, as India was passing through a terrible time. Amidst frequent clapping, she blasted the Indian government and the Bush administration. There is no real democracy in India. Several states in India are on the verge of civil war.’’

There upon a good number of readers have also expressed their opinion of her, mostly, they said, for Arundhati Roy India is not democratic enough, so, we should send her away where democracy is thriving in countries such as Pakistan, Saudi Arabia, Iran etc., Where she can express her views as freely as though she is doing it in India.

All said and heard from the both end. Now, I want to place what I think of her and how I felt as I was going through her current speech and the other issues that she is standing to defend.

As a disclaimer I do want to say one more thing here, just because I like her writing and concerns, it does not mean that I should necessarily buy into whatever she says. For instance, I blatantly disagree with her standing on the Kashmir and some other issues. So here I am on my own mind expressing my own view as to how I feel about her concerns.

First thing, why she bashes about Bush’s visit to India, she thinks, India is, without mind of its own just blindly following and taking the dictations of some money man’s opportunistic mentality . And in due course India is deliberately dragged into the world politics without its own knowledge. I think that is very true and a valid concern of a thinker.

Secondly, India is not democratic enough country so she says, I think why she should have placed such an anger evoking statement knowing that we are working hard to achieve it. We all know nothing is politically so correct ever, we do have a long way to go and achieve it. However, when she pointed out that, “Several states in India are on the verge of civil war,” that makes me to think perhaps she asks us to take a closer look at what is happening between Karnataka, Kerala versus Tamil Nadu with the water issue. What we have been witnessing there, the issue is taken at the individual level and handled even at the street side by fist fighting at times.

Let us assume in the worse case scenario, what happens if the neighboring state has empowered with money and the stuff, while the central government is powerless and no saying anything in whatever the state body’s decision? What happens if that state government with its own agenda, whatever it is, when it sees, it does not get to materialize and want to go separate as a nation by itself from India?

Well, at the individual level if we have that much hatred against its own people in sharing the natural resources, when the right time brew in, how sure are we that something like that would not happen?

On top of it, we everyday witnessing the occurrences of communal violence within its own population. Therefore, if the tension is boiling between states as if we are living in our own “separate state country” how a normal democracy machine can run smoothly with its partition mentality? What is wrong with pointing out those in a “positive antagonistic” way? So that, we all will have a chance to take a deep look at it.

In stead of looking at the bitter full truth that we face, we miss the point, yet, researching on to the source who pointed it out our own faults, and trying to exile the person from the country she loves. The same trend is common in America too, in the name of being patriotic. The unwritten policy is there, if you are patriotic enough, you are not supposed to find fault in your own country and say it out aloud. If that is the case here too, then we should really re-consider what kind of "collective opinion" we have on that notion of being patriotic and not finding faults.

I do not know how many of us read here the popular New York Times columnist, Thomas Friedman’s latest book “The Flat World.” There he portrays the fabulous side of India, but leaving the other part by making in the process of capitalistic mammoth corporate world to get in there. Arundhati Roy and like minded people are lashing about his work too. For that, again she is branded with working against her own country.

Why is that always in the history when some one is siding with the impoverished people is branded with some undesirable names?

Friday, May 19, 2006

The Air Conditioning and Oxford Press in Chennai…!

I do not know, where should I place the following blog as to what I am going to say. I wish it should not be considered as whining of an America returned freak or indecently dressed up guy who tried to show up in front of a prestigious press in the world. In spite of that, I wish it could be seen under a new shade, why we behave the way we behave, and why we tend to ill treat our own population?

Let me go on explain now what had happened to me when I was in Chennai last May’05. I was there along with my parents and my fiancée for an enquiry which I intended to do for my parents with the American Consulate the one at Chennai by Gemini Circle. Having gotten an appointment with the officials, we had left with almost three hours to kill. Since, already we experienced with the Consulate that treated people like a bunch of herds chasing around with a stick by yelling “go there,” “do not stand here,” orders, I was in a kind of irritant mood already.

Anyway, having herded and cornered away under a tree where so many people were already sweating and panting, standing there. Tired of looking at that situation, I was just innocently looking around for a place to get in and do some browsing or sitting and having a cup of juice or something.

Eventually, the Oxford Press close by fell in my mind, in fact, I had been in there for a couple times before. Therefore, it is not like something that place was new to me. So, along with my parents we started walking toward it; just before we could approach the main door, the watch man stood in our way interrogating us why do we want to get in there.

I could not hold it anymore, and asked him straight, what is wrong in going inside a book store and why are you asking us that question etc., He looked obviously puzzled, confused and just started startling not knowing what to say next. However, he came up with an answer, yet, that was so shameful on us.

The answer was, he said, “mostly people who walk in here just wanting to be in the Air Conditioning not to buy books.” I could not go on, hold on to this nonsense anymore, again I asked him in what value you justify who is a potential shopper from who is not? How do you know that I am not going to buy any books?

So the conversation went on like that for about a few minutes, by the time, in spite of my parental request not to question the watchman anymore, my fiancée just walked in and joined us. Upon hearing that what was really going on simply she could not believe what she was hearing. She burst into rage doubly, since she grew up mostly in the Western hemisphere. She lamented over it by saying, just because of the Air Conditioning that they provide in the facility they are preventing people from get access to a book store. That is ridiculous and unbelievable. On top of it, she wanted to go in and see the book store’s manager and talk to her in person. However, the watchmen pleaded her not to do it. I wonder why.

Hence, here is a question for all of us. What is wrong with the picture? Where do we go wrong with how we treat our own population? I understand, the Air Conditioning is a rare commodity still in our country. However, I do not think that a book store should treat people just like the American Consulate treat the herds.

I believe any book store is like an open worship place, I mean, it is equal to a mosque, a church or a temple. If the book store does not need a reader why in the world we should have those many books or for that case the writer himself sits there spend all his time writing. If his thoughts and concerns are not crossing the border, why he should go through the pain of sharing?

I just amazed as to what happened to us that day, along with came a lot of questions too. When are we going to change our attitude about ourselves, treating us fairly believing in as Indians are also can be educated and decent, no matter how he/she looks? The another question impeccably sneaked in my mind was, obviously the watchman might not have stopped a white man if he intends to do exactly what the watch man earlier asking us if we were going there for the Air Conditioning, would he?

If that was case then somewhere along the line our thought processes are flawed, isn‘t it? How are we going to fix this? Obviously, I can not peel my skin off or pretend someone that I am not in order to spend my money. It is not only happening in that book store it is everywhere, at the bank, railway reservation booths, worshipping places, even in universities and colleges mistreating students and calling them names. Are we people or herds of animals? Where are we doing wrong?

I believe we can change the whole attitude of our approach with our own population by self-valuing ourselves, that we are worth living, and appreciating ourselves a bit. And behaving ourselves how we ought to behave. If we can not do that, does that mean, are we having a long way to go, to cultivate and to appreciate our own existence on this planet, us as Indians, then?

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Existence of a Villager in You...!

Late last night through a telephonic conversation my external thought realm was disturbed. With which anyway I went onto bed; inculcating that sublime thought firmly embedding deep into my mind that I am not going to sleep good tonight. Expectedly past midnight I was still tossing around with stray thoughts darting in and out intending to haunt me. At last, I did not even realize when I fell asleep, but I woke up with a twittering of a bird song in the early morning out from the backyard.

The note of the bird song almost, at least, in my mind appeared like this - “OoooooRani, epdiii reeeeekku (that was close to asking how am I doing by calling on my blog name Orani).” That could be a sweet “morning greeting” from a bird one could have dreamt to receive from; the bird also might have just woken up like me, yet with a difference; he is out there in the backyard free with a focused single intention for that day, which is foraging and being safe. Unlike me who with so many sticky thoughts enmeshed with each other.

That early morning itself I was bombarded with incoming thoughts, old and new alike rushing in without even waiting for my approval; as if a switched on computer loading its software. Amidst those thoughts, I found a very interesting dialogue which my mind itself might have hooked it out, from the crowd for the later re-munching.

The prior night conversation was somewhat associated with a comparison of a villager and modern guy who lives in a metropolitan city. Thereupon, a point was made very clearly that "a being villager meant innocently go with the flow of life not knowing how to swim upstream and be competent." On the contrary, I was told that the opposite traits are true for the modern man.

The Villager and the Modern guy concept have soaked in me for a while and eventually I made an internal dialogue laying there still on my bed drifting back and forth. And the dialogue yet led me to another dimension and through which the following was my perceptual understanding about the differences between those two human states. And how they are differing from one another in their own mental plane; with a skill of their own, in terms of problem solving and their existentiality.

A thing to remember, we are not making any sweeping generalization here. In addition, the personalities could be found in alternative locations. Since the dealing itself is going to be drawn based on how they think and react to a situation. And from there we are going to draw who is in Villager’s or Metro guy’s state of mind.

I want us to be bit clear as to what I am exactly dealing about over here. The problem we are going to deal with is usually a bit of relationship and work ethics.

I consider the villager’s mind works something like this since he lives by his heart and more in contact with his inner ‘selves,’ rather than outwardly. Assuming that he thinks over things straight, since, he exposed to more less complex wordly issues. So he presents himself outwardly, more relaxed and look ever at peace, with less aggression and be more on focused state of his nature. In lesser term we can coin him as “layback” type; sit comfortably and watch the show type who thinks nothing to lose.

Conversely, the state of modern man’s mind lives mostly on his rational thinking, for external gratification. Assuming that his state of being is introduced into more broader wordly issues and things, to tackle about. Thereby, he is more aggressive and ever be on side of go getter attitude. In lesser term we can name the individuals as “restless and temperamental.”

Now, based on those backgrounds, just imagine how these two individuals are going to be in a day to day world reacting with whatever dealings come in contact. For instance, the villager when it comes to a relationship issue with others and cornered with a problem he tends to withdraw inwardly asking for a solution which is beneficial to all; thereby, producing less conflict down the road while secured peace for the future.

On the other hand, the modern individual floats on his external mind realm and get an instant solution for the issue, to thrive in that situation for that particular momentum. However not minding that the solution is going to turn out to be into the future, because, overall a less consideration is given for other people’s well being. Since, it is only a quick fix and self-centered; even so, the conflict in manifolds awaiting to haunt the individual down the road which in turn breeds a growing insecurity in ones own self.

To sum it up all, no matter how you are looked up or down just be who you are. By preserving peace with oneself, however you are less aggressive there, yet the productivity is unbound. Whereas, the restless being who havoc ones own life, at the same time whoever come in contact also tend to lose their energy around them, and in some extent taking other people down along with them also.

Therefore, the choice is ours. How we want to be coined and gained, to have what for the present.

Saturday, May 13, 2006

The Red Chair and English...?

Wow, I have not only expected this kind of article and the way of expression from someone who himself came from the same faculty of thinking but also placing these kind of questions. Simply wonderful! We are, indeed, progressing! Thank you Mr. Sam George alias Dharumi.

His writings can be found and to get enlightened please travel on this link . However, if someone is hesitant to travel on that; here are some of the hightlights from his own pad which I am placing here to get you motivated to go there...

...Hence there has to be a gap between learning in one's own mother tongue and in a foreign language. Especially this is very much so in lower classes, say, till the end of schooling. So a student can acquire more knowledge faster if he does his studies in his own mother tongue and his comprehension and mastery over the subject would be much better. What he has to do in addition is to learn one another language, English and he will have definitely enough energy to do well in one more language since his learning process of other subjects through his own mother tongue would be considerably and comparatively easier than being through English. Our schooling focuses on quantity and not on quality. Loads and loads of information are fed to the students not worrying how much is being grasped, absorbed and assimilated by the students. This leads to rote learning. The cognitive levels of understanding, comprehension,analysis and appreciation are left out from our schooling system...

Having read that I completely put myself in that frame as to what the professor is talking about. Since, I have been there and felt what he has seen the struggle in youths. So here I am sharing and confessing some of my view points on that crucial issue.

We as a nation with a strong lingual richness and background we should believe in autonomy. And encourage our children to pursue their learning skills in our own mother tongue as long as they wish; providing opportunities and necessary encouragement for the effort, as an incentive to that, offering jobs in all sectors.

Anyway, here it goes my feedback to Sam's musings...

Hi sam,

You maynot believe what I am going to say but it is a piece of truth. I have been thinking about all along since the day I switched my medium of learning from Tamil to English at my Higher Secondary level to College.

I felt that pinch in me. Why all at a sudden I should go through this nerve breaking hardship, switching to a language where I am less familiar with. In other case, my another brother happened to fail in a few classes. In spite, of his first rank at YMCA school (+2) and won a gold medal there, where he studied in Tamil medium.

When he joined for his higher studies with MCC, he was very much threatned and discouraged for not being able to grasp the essence of the very subject he very much loved to pursue. The consequence of it, he quit it in the mid-term. It was unfinished.

So I understand what do you exactly mean. In my case, I self-taught pretty much in every aspect of it. I am proud of myself where I am today with What I know of. Yet, still I am learning in a hard way.

That fake illusion should be unveiled from both the parent and kids alike, for that case even our very government and the society in whole. Thinking that if we do speak in english we are being treated like a king and get a special treatment etc.,

It is a sheer shame and ignorance in our side.

You see the Japanese and Chinese are very competent in terms of new invention and technology because they value their mother tongue and learn the fundamental principles of complex issue where they can shine with it later on in their future.

It is not the case with us. However, I see the hope at the end of the tunnel. When the mojarity of the population get more education and awareness of their own, they will be grounded and appreciate what for who they are.

And that is my hope. Right now what is going on is just a mere ignorance, mimicking with a copy-cat attitude.

I am going to publish this same feedback as a separate essay in my blog. With your article in the front line! I need it very much please understand me.

Good piece very much needed at this era, where we are today!

Another one of the good thoughts from your side ;-)

P.S: Perhaps if the teacher him/herself in the first place is taught and trained really good, they might resolve the problem too, I suppose. Since, they can find some other alternative and creative way to teach the fundamentals of a language to the kids. Govt. funded schools are the worst in that case!!


Friday, May 05, 2006

Acceptance Over Adjustment…!

Here is the another piece today to munch about. Whatever I place here is all about my own musing; which I have, one time or the other dwelt deep within myself to sort things out when I was cornered dealing with the duality of our nature. Thereupon, I brew an understanding based on the nature of issue at my hand then and how I perceive with it now. Basically, we all know the meaning of literary differences between “Acceptance” and “Adjustment.”

I have noticed one thing, we tend to use those words quiet often, when we talk of a relationship. Webster’s New Word Dictionary defines the meaning of 'Acceptance' as = receiving willingly; of 'Adjustment' as = altering something or someone to make it fit, or settling rightly. Whereas, in my mother tongue Tamil for the former we say “Aerdhup Po” and for the latter is as “Anusharichu Po.” There is a huge difference there in too! I believe we need to understand those two distinguishable words clearly as to run a smooth life within our family structure. We loosely use those words around even when it is coming to our personal relationship.

Let me explain how we can draw a line between those two enlightening words and see them respectively under a different shade. Firstly, let us take the '
adjustment state,' when some one asks to get along with our incompatible friend as we share with him/her a room, it sounds adequately appropriate suggestion to follow.

On the other hand, change the situation and a person there, suggesting you with the same 'adjustment state' of strategy with your spouse. Then the problem arise really within oneself, isn‘t? Why it should work there in one case not in the other? In the first case with our friend (!?), we know, at the end what happens in about so and so month or year, there we hope to see a light at the end of the tunnel. Therefore, momentarily knowing the end result you can run your rest of the co-habitation term in peace with a pretension as if you are in complete harmony with him/her. Knowing that you need not to put up with the same situation once the term is over.

Conversely to that arrangement, if we follow the same
‘adjustment state’ with our loved ones, the relationship is not going to go anywhere but down the hill. Why, because we start faking ourselves having known that we fail to understand the other person’s expectation at its full length or we are presenting ourselves something that we are not truly who we are. So, we start living in duality. Thereby, losing to grasp all the essence whichever emanates out of that relationship; by living in, one in one polarity while the other at the opposite.

All along, the drift is also proportionately widening irrevocably as in the case of continental drift in the ocean. If you really cherish and truly care about the relationship to thrive it for the rest of your life, that state of mind itself would be absent in the first place. Even at the very beginning when it silently tries to sneak in, you will tend to nip it in the bud, wouldn’t you? When you fail it to do so, so with the drift. The ‘adjustment state’ itself does not require much understanding, but just a drop of duality nature of us would do; which causally kicks in when we least aware of our inner ‘self.’

To acquire the
“state of Acceptance” needs a lot of self-study and inner growth to assess ones potential and insatiable thirst after knowing the truth. Differences in any human being is indispensable. Basically, that is where we all have a chance to make mistakes and learn a lesson out of it and evolve in mental and spiritual plane. When we learn a lesson, that lesson itself should be taken to our heart level to see through things whichever went wrong, and embrace it as it is one to carry later on into the future. Not even denying a little bit of that essence when we express that part of ourselves, though, now the difference is here we have learnt something out of it and embracing it, as it was part of us once.

By accepting and embracing it, we are not denying our other part but we have integrated into something better with more insight into it. And that very insightful understanding itself goes to act as a basic building block in a relationship to build a more realistic healthy family down the road.

Here is a question to think, how far one can be pushed to accept and learn, based on someone’s unrealistic and ungrounded expectations?

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Unveiling the Mask...!

Have you ever wondered yourself like what happens if you forget your costume oneday, which you put it on and off every single day without even realizing that you are doing it? The costume which I am talking about here is, wearing a mask of someone’s over ourselves away from who we really are inside. The mask that we wear the moment we get off from the bed , starting from there with our own spouse, by changing us according to their expectation. It starts right from the bedroom then it continues onto our children playing how the society compels and dictates you to behave as to how you should interact. Then we go to our work place yet under a different coat like someone that we are not even familiar with, there we behave in accordance with how our higher or lower level colleagues expect us to present. This is how everyone of us act in a day to day basis.

In spite of that, have you ever gotten a chance to be yourself and enjoy a whole day, without wearing any formal mask which hides you away from your true nature? Now, you might ask me what is it that ‘true nature’ we are talking about here. Well, the simple answer to that question is, it could be the way you wanted to interact with your spouse or children.

For instance, you want to kid around with your spouse while you take an evening walk, imagine this some sort of impulse you feel within you which makes you to behave just like a little boy by pushing and pulling, I mean literally, behave like you were a child; forgetting your age, image and whereabouts momentarily and enjoy you being just yourself. Same thing with your children irrespective of the age difference; we all do when we interact with children momentarily we have a chance to forget about the parameters that explained earlier and we tend to project our true nature in the excuse of playing with children, so, we assume to be little tender and childish. Don’t we?

To be honest with oneself, we all do know that after playing with children we feel very much relieved and light hearted. Have you ever felt that nature of yourself? If you say yes, then what is going on there. In the pursuit of chasing something in the materialistic world, seriously, we lose ourselves for the mask. The mask which we wear tend to grow proportionately as we grow bigger and bigger outwardly with different dimensionality by itself, without even waiting for our approval.

As we go with the flow of outward searching, ignoring the other part of ourselves which is being who you really are; what happens, as you near the completion of whatever the ambition or mission you had in your mind, at that point, you start feeling the pinch of the ignored being within, is empty. Then, we turn back and look within, there, we identify ourselves with a totally different person than what we are today. Whence we realize at the cost of losing our own selves, that we could have lived off differently at the end of our journey, it would be too late and left with a handful of days or none.

Ok, what happens, you, figured it out that you wanted to maximum live in your life without wearing those extensive masks no matter where you go and what do you do. Most of the time, you try being yourself. Assuming that you are fortunate to have a down to earth spouse who understands and values who you really are, not giving any external forces as to influence how you want to present yourself to the society. To lead such a life, I mean being who you wanted to be, takes a lot of courage initially, since you are presenting who you really are without the collective mask you see all around you.

In that scenario, you would be isolated or singled out from your large friends circle, since you may not meet and fall under their expectation criteria; like not holding a reputable job to satisfy others perceptual view, yet, where you might also feel least comfortable under that mask. Consequently, you may not live in a large home with an expensive car, or to put this way, you worth nothing but who you actually are. That is the prize you pay for willing to be who you are.

Because, the prize you pay to be happy and content with oneself might lead you to be simple and grounded or even will demand you to undertake a least desirable profession that the other people will frown about. The profession also the one you have chosen may not bring in so much wealth and outside reputations, though, the thing is to remember here, you are after your own room to grow and be in containment and be happy, isn't it? Therefore, the simplicity and containment are the two positive path to be on with your full understanding.

Top it up all, it is very hard to be living without the mask in the majority where everyone goes with the norm, yet, if you are ready to lose some of the usual comforts; such as a large pompous friend’s circle who is yet to go a long way to go grow internally, and breaking the fake images of yourself etc., will put you closer to your inner being and live for your own “self.” Rather than what the society demands you to be. If you are chanced to pick up a choice between those two, in a juncture, when you turn around and look your path which you have trodden thus far, you would feel that you have lived fully well all along with no regrets at all. That is the whole point of being who you are.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

*Brood Parasitism in Our Own Family*

Last evening as I was sitting in my backyard and watching a sun set along with a Red Finch, a thought brushed against my mind and left with an impression. The impression is nothing but a comparative analysis of a family member how and when they could have behaved and turned out to be a Koel (an Indian Cuckoo) that hides it eggs in the Crows nests. In natural science, we term it as brood parasitims for its behavior. Since the Koel itself does not want to sit in one place and incubate, so that, it can experience the reality of mating and its consequence.

In our world, I mean we too have way too many individuals in almost every family who follows just like the Koel like concept. The individuals possibily want to have everything around them; all the comforts one can imagine yet hardly have a heart to move their little finger to yearn and shoulder their own responsibility. Realizing the hardship and failing to grasp the essence of working hard and seeing the fun in it, in spite, they employ a different kind of strategy to get around to get what they want. And that is where this "brood parasitism" concept naturally falls on to their lap. The investment they do make for it is zero materially but emotionally a huge amount of mockery tears. The substratum, I mean the nest, has been chosen to play it out can not go beyond the territory of their own parents domicile.

In that scenario, at least, one of the parents has to be meticulously and emotionally manipulated in the name of love. And usually that figure happened to be the mother. Now the plot is ready and the character ever omnipotent which is, the manipulator, family of his own with a wife and a bunch of kids topping with poor me looks! Play is on the move now indefinitely as long as the nest stay intact. If the nest, mean the parents, weathers off in due course when all the incoming resources associated with them stops abruptly, so the play too. Now, what we have in our hand with that much effort we have put in, in association to make that brood parasitic family is on move, now left with nothing but more well trained manipulator with wings of their own.

Well, let us take that one simple example and nest it in by adding with way too many throughout the country and at the end point sub-nest it in the country itself, and characterise the country with that kind of collective society. And that is where our economy depends for the survival of its own with that kind of society living in. Preying on one another without looking out for more resources to bring in and feed the giant machine. At present, we do have way too many individuals still within our family brood parasiting, in order to weed them out, whoever is provisining them with basic commodities should stop them altogether and put them through hungery stomach yet providing them a chance to stand on their own feet. Thereby, giving them a chance also to reap the fruition of their self-worth to live here. It is infectious, if once they tasted that fruit of self-worth, they will never go back to the brood parasitic concept.

Our country economy also strongly depends on these kind of individuals too. So, As a responsible citizen to our family and country we should smoke these individuals out of their habituation to let go off their territory and see the world beyond their respective wives laps.

This avian concept can happen within a family and country in whole. Preying on each other. Corruption. Therefore, staled economy and rotten politician. Lack of role models will eventually lead the citizen into the black hole not knowing how to get out of it.

Friday, April 21, 2006

Playing God?

When we are young and dynamic we all might have a little bit of left over childhood nature which is being honest to oneself, if we are aware of that nature early enough we can take that flame going on in you even after well into your adulthood. If you happened to be that way, the fire in you kindles intuitively always to be the best who you are to project onto the outside even if it brings hardship in your life. People who voluntarily go through hardship are the one who experiment his own self, I suppose. For instance, so many activists and social workers fall into that category. Why an activist who constantly goes through all kind of troubles without even expecting anything in return? What makes them to adhere with that kind of life?

To be on that path with that kind of determination one has to be so strong with a belief system whatever it is to his core. Otherwise, a small hardship can make that individual to put his tail between his legs and turn around and run for his life. So, then, what makes them so strong and face the life they choose to be on? I think, two factors could play a crucial part in it.

A) The individual might have recognized his strong passion and bring it forth to his awareness which in turn it gives him a sense of fullness for his existence.

B) On the other hand, out of social compulsion by observing around him as to what is going on and what needs to be done to play as a responsible citizenry.

With these identified ideals the one who wants to serve for the humanity initiate him/herself into the public service. Again it takes ones unshakable faith in whatever he believes in since what all he goes to face sheer disappointment and discouragement at least in the earlier ventures. As he prepares to cling on to the task, as time passes by he learns to cruise around in spite of all those hardships on his way, yet live in complete fullness.

To me the very life itself is like pre-written script and it is re-played over and over with same scene and the nature of stories yet with varying faces. Therefore, the bigger the challenge you have undertaken to experiment the greater the learning possibilities. No matter what, if you are involved in less attractive and more trouble some business like this, we can presume that we are trying to play God’s game a bit. God’s game as we all know, less lucrative economically and socially yet uplifting emotionally. However, what we get out of pursuing that thirst, well, we are making little closer to realizing our own true existence and its purpose. The reward of being truthful to oneself.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Why We Should Be Different?

It is a question I asked myself in so many different phases, as I go with the flow of life. I do not believe in look alikes. Diversity brings in more life and amazement to ones existence; which, in turn, gives away more room to grow and multiply in ones self growth. If I do what do you do and how you behave in general then where is the fun to live and for chit chat. Just because you are happened to be in a place where every one behave and present themselves as if they are cash crops, if you follow their course of presentation of yourself how else you are providing a chance to project your individuality to spring up.

If you do the same, in wildlife we have a term for it which is "opportunist," what they do natuarally as a survival strategy they tend to mimic what its environment forcing it to do. In that scenario, it has two options; a) go with the requirement or b) stand off. Going with the requirement does not require as much creativity as in the case of being in your way and get the job done. Standing off from the crowd sounds a hard work, yet it is not so in my view, since you are doing what you are naturally accustomed to do. You are there without even paying attention to what you are doing just being yourself. Yet the productivity is there but in fullness with a touch of your own.

What I am trying to make a point out here is so many overseers immigrating constantly from place to place. That is indispensable and happening from the origin of mankind. Even if we look at closely the very origin of different species itself behold a message of being different what good it bringforth. If there is no diversity at all, the very survival of our existence itself is in question. Why, if we do not prefer to have different niches, I mean, occupy different climatic zone with different food preferences what happens in due course we will be competing for the same food or for the same climatic zone to live in.

It goes with everything I believe, if you are immigrating to a new place try to adjust to that environment as to without losing ones natural identity, rather than trying to become someone you yourself are not comfortable with later on. America appreciates multi-culturalism that means you need not to be changed at your core level. Express who you are and that is you, an american. When you get a second look think, this is what makes you special.

Then, why buy others idea rather than you experiment your own ideal of living and shifting your perception based on what is seemed to be right or wrong to you. So the point is here, if you are good back home as a human being so you are good to go anywhere on this planet, believe in yourself. Good luck guys.

I know there are lots of hilarious Janes, Susan, Jackie, John and Joe on the phone from India mimicking and trying it even away from the survival(work) zone too :-) these days.

Monday, April 17, 2006

Our Mental Health...

Today I started reading a book titled on "Ageless Body and Timeless Mind" authored by Deepak Chopra, as I go through some of his musings over Mind and Body and how they are inseparably interwined with each other. Interestingly enough, a couple years before I remember talking about the same issue with my significant one the same way insisting that "it is the mind the one which controls our bodily reaction not body by itself."

For instance, the disease causing pathogens wins over body when our mind fail to believe that it can resist the incoming pathogens by increasingly be on the negative awareness. Therefore, seemingly the belief system itself builds up your immune system much stronger than anything else.

Deepak puts it this way in his own wordings, "The biochemistry of the body is a product of awareness. Beliefs, thoughts, and emotions create the chemical reactions that uphold life in every cell. An aging cell is the end product of awareness that has forgotten how to remain new." The same way, I tend to see a day how it starts and ends based on my own mental state.

It can be explainable through my own experience; as I drive my car with closed window, no music or any other noise from within passing through and looking at a noisy choatic town. Potentially, the same scene can leave two different impacts in our mind generally depending upon our state of mind for that given time.

If I meditated for that day, and I was not disturbed on the surface level of my existence I see that choatic scene as peaceful and is in rhythm looking at the beuaty part of how people are moving around elegantly, forgetting the chaotic nature of it. On the other hand, if the car is filled with some loud music and I am profoundly engaged earlier myself with an argument over a thing and now I happened to pass through the same market observing, now my mind leaves me an image that the world is chaotic and everything is unorganised.

Thereby, the clear message is here our biochemistry is closely interelated based up on our mental state and its associated emotions. This is when I came to know the essentiality of practicing Yoga and Meditation in day to day basis and how far it helps me to be grounded irrespective of circumstances.

When our innerself is at peace everything seems to be moving in harmony when it is agitated so everything else. So from this simple observation of my mental state and its association to its environment where I am embedded in for that day leaves me to monitor more on my mind. By feeding the mind with more powerful or simple positive energy, as we go come in handy, to be at peace for our own healthy living.

What I have learnt thus far is this "to lead a peaceful and happy life" we have to be in constant touch with our innerself which is ever at rest and peaceful. If we want us to be remain in the same course just watch our mind where it wanders and hovers over. Above all be in containment with what we have rather than what we do not.

Monday, April 10, 2006

What brought me over here?

If I had known the answer for that question I would not be writing this blog under that title. There are so many worldly wisdoms I have been gathering all along as I am wading through my life so carelessly learning and collecting the trash and dumbing them in so called my mind garbage bin. Hoping that those collected memory bundles oneday would help me to find out what is it that I am looking for out of this existence.

As I read and travel more, obviously I came to understand myself that I am looking for something desperately out there. Interaction with different backgrounded people hearing their likes and dislikes, beliefs and disbeliefs, of their dualities nature how they all collided with mine and what I am learning out of those experiences. And that is what exactly brought me over here to share whenever "the association" is put me in a situation to ask the right question such as why is it this way, and what is my role in it and eventually leading me to ask who am I?

Perhaps my thoughts are not going to be coherent in nature since the occurrence of thought itself at random and self-explorative.